It has officially been
over four months since I have smoked a cigarette and today is the
first time I really, really feel like one. I think it's the sunshine.
Somehow I equate smoking with chilling outside and relaxing, but i
won't smoke. Instead i did get some nicotine lozenges
so hopefully they will cut the cravings.
I
washed the windows and have hoovered the whole
flat today, even cleaned the bathroom and now its on to organizing.
We are having guests over tomorrow so that is my reasoning, but
honestly I feel the need to organize my
thoughts and control the craving. Cleaning also helps me avoid doing
the things i really need to get done with art stuff like making a
final decision on the actual materials I will use for the final
installation. This all has to do with money and budgets and they are
making me utterly paranoid and stressed and the sunshine is
beckoning, as is the leftover wine from May
Day.
So here
in the spirit of documentation some miniatures i made for the
installation. Now I must clear them away and get on with the
cleaning. Will try to connect to this blog next week though i'm not
holding my breath for time.
Las
night I dreamt that I was on the camino. I'm not sure what that
means.
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